The man in my life is Leonardo da vinci


I have fallen in love with a man that died many years ago…he was beautiful and a true human genius.  I first met him on an audio book and learned of his behaviors and attitudes that matched my own.  The most influential person in my life was found in my mid-thirties??  Let’s just say he is my new romantic interest.  From the day I listened to the words on the CD about his work, made me want to be a better person and strive for more than my present condition.  My senses have been multiplied a million times over.  I thought I was in a glass jar with my artistic creative mind and the lid to trap me from sharing my ideas to others.  I’ve learned to love and share again.  My world isn’t broken anymore.  There is a brand new promise that I can cling and hold on to.  He is the ghost that I have been searching for all my life.  If I had only met Leonardo when I was a little child.  He could have whispered his wise advice and kept me from the harms of the whole population I was exposed to as I became an adult.  I can’t pretend that I wasn’t bullied in my teens for being too creative, too outgoing, too skinny, and too intelligent.  I have put to death this ideal that I can’t express my mind and the flood of information from my journey is useless.  I banish the traps of the opinions of others.  I put my head down to take a nap and day dream about what my heavenly artistic man would be doing at that very moment.  Sometimes my inspirations happen before and after my dreams.  Why shut off the content and direction of my career aspirations?  This time I invested knowing how Leonardo spent his days and it made me stop watching television or listening to the marketing vibe on the media circuit.  Guess my years of trying to write for other people, I should start to express myself any way I choose.  Now I don’t care if people “get” my output of my art therapy…I know what it means to me and that includes getting rid of the pain I held inside.  I am not a murderer.  I am just drawing the things that have destroyed me over the years.  My spirit and soul reached to a higher level and that is how I came to free up space for my new relationship.  His intelligence is worth a thousand men to me.  My love for him is forever.

Loving a dead man
Loving a dead man

Published by heatherdeogracia

On the first day of my job, I walk into a production studio to hand in paperwork. A young gentleman stands up to shake my hand when I walk into the room. "Wow! You are tall." he states. I point to my heels of my shoes. "Wow! You are short." Laughter lights up the room. Matt Damon San Francisco Clear Channel Radio With an electric soul of an artist, Heather Deogracia, has an interesting personality that uses her manic branches of her mind to express her sense of humor, expand the creative hourly illustration addiction and continually read big books about artistic principles, elements and glorious techniques to feed her intellectual capabilities. “With a splash of color and chemicals in my brain, I have to clean it out once a day or it must flash flood my other organs.” Heather Deogracia Proud to start staging a background of her latest achievements, Heather was on the front page Sunday Feature in the Midland Daily News on Oct. 19, 2016 and is an Award-Winning Fine Artist for the state-wide competition Legacy Trust Award Collection for the past three years in a row. She displayed in over 30 exhibits and fundraisers in the tri-city area over the past four years. She has earned a 2017 Leadership of Bay County Achievement Award from Studio 23 and a Midland County Art Letourneau Award for "Collaboration and Creativity in Community Support". A harshly educated woman, Deogracia spent five years to earn a double major Bachelor’s Degree of Science in Medical Illustration in Pre-Medicine and Fine Art at California State University in San Bernardino. At the same time period, she held down three jobs as an Intern for the District Attorney, Graphics Editor for the college weekly newspaper and created the Peer Health Education program. Her artistic talents covered in the fine studio art requirements included painting, color theory, graphic design, photography, figure drawing, advanced drawing, watercolor, sculpture, illustration and art portfolio assignments to keep work organized. In the sciences, she has a background in chemistry, organic chemistry, biochemistry, advanced human anatomy and psychology, biology, genetics, comparative animal psychology, marine biology and medical microbiology. Currently, she has been an art instructor for workshops for the past year for Creative 360, teaching private art lessons and writing a graphic novel soon to complete by the beginning of 2018 named Heather Hurts Inside: Illustrations of a Broken Human. The new true story is about a suicidal bipolar woman that is prescribed Ritalin at the age of 38 and she reverts back to her glory days of her life. The truth is that no one knows the past is killing her mind.