Has anyone in your entire life looked at you and said these words “Your soul is beautiful”?
Hmmmm…crying spell for Heather once again. I was so quiet the whole bible study group on sunday and the leader asked me why I was being so quiet…imagine that! I had been assigned to read this book about the 26 names of God and I started to go beyond the topic about how the universe even came to be. I started to really question the true start of my soul. My father had a soul. My mother had a soul. They together made a new “soul”. Me.
All my life I was called good names and bad names. I put that smile on my face and tried to laugh off the compliment or the criticism. In truth, I would find a secret spot and cry out my feelings. My brain actually triggered something in me that my feelings would calm again if I just be silent or sob out the problems in my life. Being made fun of being a crying girl really hurt me deep inside. I had a pocket in my brain that collected the hurt and another pocket of absolute brilliant shining moments.
Then it hit me a few days ago that I was never comforted all these years of a traumatic childhood, teen, adult stages of my life. I never got the hug. I never got the kiss on the cheek. I never heard the words of unconditional love.
Finally, I brought this up at the group and everyone saw the pain and watch my eyes splash with tears. Everyone got out of their seats and put their hands on me. Real true love was in that room and now my soul can stop suffering. I surrendered my mind from every bad deed and all the time I wasted on what other people thought about me.
I now look at tissues a whole new way…let the world be mean and I will cry. Let the world be nice and I will cry. I was called a “beautiful” soul in 2014 and from this day forward, respect my outpour of tears and understand a “broken” spirit takes time to heal.
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On the first day of my job, I walk into a production studio to hand in paperwork. A young gentleman stands up to shake my hand when I walk into the room. "Wow! You are tall." he states. I point to my heels of my shoes. "Wow! You are short." Laughter lights up the room.
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With an electric soul of an artist, Heather Deogracia, has an interesting personality that uses her manic branches of her mind to express her sense of humor, expand the creative hourly illustration addiction and continually read big books about artistic principles, elements and glorious techniques to feed her intellectual capabilities.
“With a splash of color and chemicals in my brain, I have to clean it out once a day or it must flash flood my other organs.”
Heather Deogracia
Proud to start staging a background of her latest achievements, Heather was on the front page Sunday Feature in the Midland Daily News on Oct. 19, 2016 and is an Award-Winning Fine Artist for the state-wide competition Legacy Trust Award Collection for the past three years in a row. She displayed in over 30 exhibits and fundraisers in the tri-city area over the past four years. She has earned a 2017 Leadership of Bay County Achievement Award from Studio 23 and a Midland County Art Letourneau Award for "Collaboration and Creativity in Community Support".
A harshly educated woman, Deogracia spent five years to earn a double major Bachelor’s Degree of Science in Medical Illustration in Pre-Medicine and Fine Art at California State University in San Bernardino. At the same time period, she held down three jobs as an Intern for the District Attorney, Graphics Editor for the college weekly newspaper and created the Peer Health Education program.
Her artistic talents covered in the fine studio art requirements included painting, color theory, graphic design, photography, figure drawing, advanced drawing, watercolor, sculpture, illustration and art portfolio assignments to keep work organized. In the sciences, she has a background in chemistry, organic chemistry, biochemistry, advanced human anatomy and psychology, biology, genetics, comparative animal psychology, marine biology and medical microbiology.
Currently, she has been an art instructor for workshops for the past year for Creative 360, teaching private art lessons and writing a graphic novel soon to complete by the beginning of 2018 named Heather Hurts Inside: Illustrations of a Broken Human. The new true story is about a suicidal bipolar woman that is prescribed Ritalin at the age of 38 and she reverts back to her glory days of her life. The truth is that no one knows the past is killing her mind.
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