The Pathetic Soldier PHD Project for Stanford


The jugular of WWIII was sliding from my neurosis. My psychosis. A heart doctor is what I need. I close my eyes and wish I could repair the heart that I at 44 still needed. The extraordinary difficulty and pain in the name of love and the beloved country. The birth of a virus that swelled my lungs. The expanded mind of a foreign princess. What is this land I sing into my eyes. My aqua blue eyes. The ocean and the smell of the salt in California romantically twirls me into swirls of dance. The surf of the crash of the waves and the crash of me. It is the day dream and the just inner crush of the metal frame of the military air carrier. The princess enters the doors of the war room.

Never taught to salute to the flag. Never taught how to march like a soldier or even been asked to dance with one. The American Princess did not get the drafts notice about the emergency of doctors needed to give mouth to mouth on board of crazy love-crazed humans. Is it really true that the confusion lies across a move of the country.

Portraits of the love of the past haunted until she could no longer cough and slice her throat with drugs. She is the proud artist. The blind kind. Am I six feet? Am I fat? Am I rich? Am I the most confused sort in Midland, MI. I insisted on writing a book for myself and get the most important factors out of the way.

  1. Did sexual abuse destroy the childhood of innocence and what would science and psychiatry have to say about proof of adult behavior?
  2. Could I forget my entire life and try every psychiatric medication to erase a long intense suicidal poison injected by a scorpion?
  3. For a girl that has always been a “super star” at the age of three, get on a stage and make the world smile?
  4. How would I know the word or the stroke of the keys of love have enough ambition to run an “International” market of entertainment incorporation with the multi-personality worse than that written in Hollywood history?
  5. Friendship and using the words “love love love love” until years dissolve into body language of routine and a new rage that would destroy the sanctity of marriage. Could a part turn my head into a woman with, according to LinkedIn, a more then 62 job description leaning on her intelligence and life experiences. Would need to pull together so many investors, it would be a world wide event in the United States of America? Could I be in “danger”? Not in Midland.

For the next year, I am going to write seven pages a day to tell my story. I work 11 am to 11 pm with free time to seek out next friends, business partners, mentors, investor advice and there are a list of 30 office floors of my MAP Miss American Princess Inc. Building. Let the research begin. I ordered 11 books about mythology, media moguls and how to create stories with in hours. My eye is always on 5 projects. Currently: Star Wars: Sketch of the Universe, Mission Impossible: Miss American Princess, Something about the Way he Loves Me: The true-story love story with Matthew Dexter, Princess of Ireland Heather Dawn Deogracia and the Prince of Spain Charles Edward Deogracia. The End

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On the first day of my job, I walk into a production studio to hand in paperwork. A young gentleman stands up to shake my hand when I walk into the room. "Wow! You are tall." he states. I point to my heels of my shoes. "Wow! You are short." Laughter lights up the room. Matt Damon San Francisco Clear Channel Radio With an electric soul of an artist, Heather Deogracia, has an interesting personality that uses her manic branches of her mind to express her sense of humor, expand the creative hourly illustration addiction and continually read big books about artistic principles, elements and glorious techniques to feed her intellectual capabilities. “With a splash of color and chemicals in my brain, I have to clean it out once a day or it must flash flood my other organs.” Heather Deogracia Proud to start staging a background of her latest achievements, Heather was on the front page Sunday Feature in the Midland Daily News on Oct. 19, 2016 and is an Award-Winning Fine Artist for the state-wide competition Legacy Trust Award Collection for the past three years in a row. She displayed in over 30 exhibits and fundraisers in the tri-city area over the past four years. She has earned a 2017 Leadership of Bay County Achievement Award from Studio 23 and a Midland County Art Letourneau Award for "Collaboration and Creativity in Community Support". A harshly educated woman, Deogracia spent five years to earn a double major Bachelor’s Degree of Science in Medical Illustration in Pre-Medicine and Fine Art at California State University in San Bernardino. At the same time period, she held down three jobs as an Intern for the District Attorney, Graphics Editor for the college weekly newspaper and created the Peer Health Education program. Her artistic talents covered in the fine studio art requirements included painting, color theory, graphic design, photography, figure drawing, advanced drawing, watercolor, sculpture, illustration and art portfolio assignments to keep work organized. In the sciences, she has a background in chemistry, organic chemistry, biochemistry, advanced human anatomy and psychology, biology, genetics, comparative animal psychology, marine biology and medical microbiology. Currently, she has been an art instructor for workshops for the past year for Creative 360, teaching private art lessons and writing a graphic novel soon to complete by the beginning of 2018 named Heather Hurts Inside: Illustrations of a Broken Human. The new true story is about a suicidal bipolar woman that is prescribed Ritalin at the age of 38 and she reverts back to her glory days of her life. The truth is that no one knows the past is killing her mind.